How Does Being More Connected Work? (Personal View)

Get More Chains of Connections

I didn't realize that the month of March became my "No Blog Post" month. April Fool's day had passed and now I'm fooling around writing something.

March is also my "Improve My Self-Esteem" month. I read so many inspirational books and digital books(in pdf form), listened to audio interviews and audio books. I learned a lot from doing that but there's something's missing. I'm still isolating myself to people, I know I don't have to please everybody but I don't have to hide myself  living in my own cave.

For two consecutive weeks, I've been attending seminar from Singles for Christ in Cabuyao, Laguna(province in the Philippines). I'm also in Laguna but it will took me two hours to get to Cabuyao. I know that God has always something for me, His plans is infinitely greater than us. I met those people when I decided to attend "The Feast" from the Light of Jesus Community founded by Bro. Bo Sanchez. Though I never met Bro.Bo, he teach me a lot of lessons about life and God. He never knew this but Bro. Bo is one of the main reason why I'm writing a blog(I'll tell that story later).

Back to my story about me attending Singles For Christ seminars, last topic was about God's love and it is quoted in this bible verse from John 3:16 which says

"For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth on him should not perish, but have everlasting life."

I plan to go to "The Feast" which is also in Laguna, this time in Sta.Rosa and about two hours traveling time from where I live. I was alone finding an empty seat and after a couple of minutes then I find one. In that whole row there's just only one empty seat. So I ask those people seating in that row if there is someone supposedly in that seat. They told me they're waiting for someone but anyway they allow me to seat there.

My seatmate greeted me, introduced me to his friends and after "The Feast" we take some pictures. Yes, we take some pictures as we were friends for years when the truth is I barely know them. They don't treat me as some kind of stranger, in-fact they invited me to join them for dinner. We got some nice chit-chat and learned that they were members of Singles for Christ in Cabuyao. They invite me to attend their seminars and I said yes. After dinner we parted our ways and so glad to meet those wonderful people of God.


Connecting the Dots

It all starts when I read the post from Bro.Bo's blog more than two years ago. The post was about Jomar Hilario conducting a internet marketing seminar. I was not sure about that and I think that might be a scam. But the fact that Jomar was introduced by a very incredible and holy man, then I tried my best to pay-up the price to attend that event. Since then, I start attending more internet marketing seminars from Jomar and other seminars from John Callub and Trace Trajano. I started reading books about business and anything that is inspirational to me. Attending those seminars to me was no joke, working in a manufacturing company my salary is almost barely for me and the tuition feed of my sisters and my youngest brother.

But, I can't see any result. Ok there is but what I mean is a result in terms of earnings. I want to be wealthy, but there again something missing. I need some spiritual nourishment. I always go to church every Sunday which I think makes me an obedient Catholic. I realized that more than going to church someday, I also need a kind of community where there is sharing of God's love in everyone.

Although it all starts from reading a blog from a great spiritual leader, I've always been a skeptic. I just want to earn a living and tithe someday. So I push myself more to attend another gathering, this time a spiritual gathering and I already told you what happens.

Acceptance Not Annoyance

One of the blocks of doing the things that I want to do is confusion. Aside from battling my insecurities where I slowly winning. I was confused if I had to abandoned my friends who has not had the mindset which I think I had. Sorry for being so self-righteous, I now accept every person that comes to my life but still cautious. We all had imperfections, I accepted mine and with other people as well.

I'm saying that I'm attending seminar from spiritual communities like Singles for Christ but I also admit that I for the month of March. I've been drinking a lot(like beer and some hard drinks) not that I got a lot of problem but I just want to know more about the people at work. Mostly people tell you their stories when they were drunk. I became closer with more people but I can't take away the guilt.

But the highlights of my friendship is not just about being drunk with them. Last week, we had our summer outing again in Laguna but this time in Nagcarlan. We ate, we play parlor games, we also watch a movie. I enjoyed a lot not because of the beauty of the place or the great foods but because of the people. The more I exposed myself to more people the more I improve my self-esteem, that's why I said that March is "Improve my Self-esteem Month". I loved to be connected with more people.

I read the newest blog post from Bro.Bo about acceptance. Bro.Bo Sanchez said that some people in church is annoyed with people they think were not spiritual enough. Jesus does not condemn sinners so who am I to do that?

Yesterday another drinking session invitation, this time I didn't join them. I love my friends but I must have control or else that could give some negative effects on me.

Lord, give me strengths and wisdom to choose what's right.